march 18 cba
It's been almost six years since I last had a drink. I don't really think about it much, but when I do, the thing that sticks out is that basically everything good in my life right now is downstream of making the decision to quit drinking in 2020. The main good thing is currently snoring beside me while I write this post (and watch Luka DonΔiΔ vivisect the Houston Rockets). It's her birthday tomorrow. Sometime in the late morning when I will most likely be in a meeting, she will be turning [redacted] years old.
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I don't really talk about my partner on this blog ββ this is the only post that really comes to mind ββ but I certainly could. I think she could be a great character in these posts because she is so endlessly interesting to me. But writing about her in that way wouldn't be right. Not the right frequency. Right latitude but wrong longitude. She is the with actor or the and actor. She isn't quite the one dentist with the courage to stand apart, but she knows him. And advises him. She is Lydia Deetz but also Maria Bamford but also Andrew Nembhard but also Werner Herzog. Early in our relationship I called her "the white Grace Jones" ββ a motherfucker of a compliment if I do say so myself ββ and all these years later I still think the same thing every time I see her, which is often, because our loft is really not that big.
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Anyway I had been anxious all week in re: the presents I got her and the things I had planned. A few of the gifts didn't arrive on time and that bummed me out, and then I made more of it than I should have (in my head), and while I was talking myself down or otherwise untangling myself I had occasion to notice, once again, that everything good in my life right now is downstream of making the decision to quit drinking in 2020. And then I gave her an enamel pin of Alf holding plantains and bunch of stickers from Dogecore as early birthday presents and she was delighted.
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Be good to yourself.
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